Well, i havent wrote in a bit. Maybe because ive been distracted?
well idk.
Me and sean are friends again, me and megan are not. Oh well, Shit Happens. Nikita and adam broke up again, idk why but yeah. Sucks-they were so cute together. oh well, again, shit happens.
I miss everyone at the park really bad. I wanna see them all. Well i hung out with Linda and Melissa Friday. We want and saw Fun With Dick and Jane. Funny but perverted and wrong. haha.
I miss Jacob really bad. And im horney sorta...*cough* ehem yeah.
Ive been thinking alot about the world. I hate it. Most people are full of shit and are shallow. Everyone makes fun of people because how they look and what they like then they say they dont do that. wtf?!?!
im in LOVE with jthm, it makes me realize how effed up the world is. Even though its a bit gorey and bloody and alot of cuss words but isent that the best part?? lol but it really reflects how the world is. Hahaha well, i suggest people should read jthm. yes. deffinately.
Lately ive also wanted to hang out with Nikita and my friend Sarah lately. I dont know why. Ive just been connected with them or something lately. O_o hmm weird eh? I want some chinese food. yum...or japanese food. yuuum *creams panties* haha j/k =]
well kbye!

Alright, so i spent the night at Nikita's and were singing Kareoke =] then my lovely Jacob calls and she shit went down at the park...>.> of course I miss it grrr but yeah. Jacob said he was glad I wasent there anyways because he wouldnt have been there =p *sigh* hes going to end up doing something stupid ones of these days. =[ so yup. anyways at Nikitas we watching this movie in Japanese, it had Gackt and Hyde in it. It was a vampire movie =] but it had really not plot or storyline, so we were all like HAHA it was quite funny in some parts. but everyone was getting shot! It was called Moon Child (yet it had nothing to do with the moon or a child, but i guess the vampire thing was what the title was about) chepp so we go to bed and thats about it! oh nikita made some killer Egg Drop Soup (Chineseeeeeeeeeee foooooooooooooooood!!!!!!!!!!!!!) haha

Okay, as a continum--
well i finished my mound of homework and even took a shoer *yay* im about to watch American Idol. =] yeah i know Im a loseeeeeeer! =p tis okay though. Jacob hasent called me yet, and he said he would so im kind of [worried] over nothing lol he applied for Walmart and since Doris works there she can help get him a job. Hopefully he gets one. he wants one really bad =/ so yeah. i was kind of wishing thats why he hasent called...chepp =D im going to get him this pair of shoes he really wants if he gets the job as a present =]
BECAUSE I LOVE HIIIIIIIIIIIM!
hahaha oh well American Idol time!
oh yeah school was rough then when i got home and yeah, the day or w/e got better =]

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cha, 1st day back at school x___x *dies* it sucked so hard. i have a shit load of make up work and a shit load of make up tests a quizes!! grrrrr! and i have CRAMPS! AGH! >.> man i hate school, i dont know if ill be going to the park or not this weekend =/ i wanna see jacob though! oh well, these two days of sitting at home have been okay, i was chatting with nikita for a bit =] chepp, well off to do the mountain of hw! yay! >.

alright, my first entry-woot!
yeah so im sick, i have strep. ive been taking these meds but they dont seem to be working >.> x___x damn oh well...=[ my throat hurts, both my ears hurt, i have a headache, i feel dizzy and shit, im sore all over, i feel like throwing up too >.< chepp...anyways
i feel like im starting to lose control over everything i had in control...im starting to get depressed too, its not really good when i get depressed. i feel like i have no control over anything and i hate that feeling because i get angry and have mood swings horribly. i think i have anger issues too...i fucking miss jacob, i fucking love jacob...i dont want him to leave me...he says he wont but theres still insecurities with me. i dont want to lose him, because it will hurt so fucking bad. he sometimes gets irritated with me and it makes me feel 5000000x worse just because im insecure with myself and i have worries about us. also i have to deal with my friends issues [god knows i make friends with depressed children like me who have hXc issues] but im glad to help them because when it gets better they really appriciate it. ive come to the conclusion with the help of tia that i should become a psycologist. and since im oh so great at helping people i guess i will. yeah well...i also fucking hate my parents anad i dont know why, every little thing they do pisses me off now. a sign im becoming depressed again...oh and im fucking up in school already...so i need to get to work seriously